Last night was the first properly mad sunday night we've had in ages.
Fun, drinking games, utter silly.
Sean coming onto me *shudder*
a new hicky (yet again, I am just a magnet)
a trashed apartment,
Austin time.
I'd forgotten how I missed Austin, he's just so wonderful to have a round, a bubble of light and fun.
Larry and Vicky ended up together
and Josh and Diane (Mariams roommate)
But I could've sworn Josh was coming onto me,
we kissed in one of those s… Continue

Hah!
So.. Eh.
Yes.
People coming over tonight,
should be fun.
Sunday was a sleepy day, very very nonsensical.
And tiring and gah.
PArtyYyyyYyy tonight.
Shelly's coming up on Tuesday, I miss her.
I miss sitting at the end of her bed listening to chill out music with scented candles and dried flowers all over the walls, she just added a lot of colour to my soul, I don't know if I'd be the person I am today if I hadn't had Shelly around me to make me feel safe in my indi… Continue

I sat around.
Painted, slept, twas lovely relaxing.
I stepped outside and just smilled. It was grey and drizzley and cold in that fresh cutting way you only get when it rains.
I'd forgotten how I missed rain, this south-coast bubble is too sunny, I miss the west.
I walked and walked and walked and walked.
Then I sat around with Josh,
went home,
Cox and Josh came over,
we drank
smoked a few,
Wandered the field,
rolled down hills, getting soaking wet,… Continue

Today I sat around and thought about yesterday and the day before yesterday.
Wandering into centra the next day in my halloween costume,
feeling pretty,
felling wanted.
Wanting to have sex with Cox and feeling his subtle rejection.

I like him, gah, and it's so immature to not just be able to come out with it but I can't,
my heart has been hurt too many times
and I've fucked up too many friendships.

Me and Cox and Josh went to the Newman building and I ju… Continue