A letter to myself

Dear Me,

How long have you known your ownself? Just today, you said you pitied yourself and envied others because of their good writing abilities. Do you think you deserve such words. I've known you for years, in fact no one knows you better than me. I can say that you're blessed, maybe not in terms of wealth but in some way more than any wealth, so to speak. You were born in April, that's why I cannot excuse this theme because it concerns you. Ever since, especially during your younger years(this is not being shirked), you've attached yourself to how your zodiac sign describes you. April, being the sheep connotes that you are a born leader, you're stubborn and you want your mind rule others. In fact, you can be good at politics, public speaker, an artist etc. While there are good things for you under your sign, there are also not so good in them like you are impulsive, you've got very low level of patience and tolerance and some more. The thing why I told you you're blessed is because out of you and your loved one, you've got five beautiful and intelligent children who had gotten your qualities that are gradually showing among each one of them. I know you're worried and not so happy because you do not have a beautiful house to talked about, no interior furnishings to show your friends, in fact, you don't want your friends especially those well- off to visit your house because you don't want them to say things that might hurt you or surely will hurt you like: why is it that for the many years that you've been working (with your job and high salary, at least at this point in time its already quite a good salary)you have not finish your house, you have'nt even painted it, finished it, you haven't tiled it and look at the back of your house where your wash area is, it's dilapidated, looks it will gonna fall. What about your fridge, it's been 20 years already and though its still working, why haven't you bought at least a new one(because it's still working and am in crisis yet) Yes! you haven't done all those things but they are all in your mind, who wouldn't want a beautiful house, who wouldn't want to be visited and showcase furnishings around with friends, who wouldn't loved to be talked about with things like having a beautiful house with extra ordinary fursnishings, who wouldn't want to tile his/her floors when the dust accumulate so fast and your sole can't hardly tolerate it roughness. Who wouldn't want a safe washing area? I know you do crave for all those things, not because they are your luxuries but bacause they are your need at the moment. However, because, you still have your schooling children who occupies your priority areas. You couln't exchange them for anything of your whims. This April, you haven't even bought yourself a gift, however your children did present you a gift out of the savings they had from their allowances. How did you feel? It touched your heart, even their individual SMS sent on that very day made you teary eyed. The thought of it would just make you think that someday after each of them would be financially capable, they can still gave you more than what you dream at the moment. But, let me give you this piece of mind. Be extra thankful to the Almighty God for He has given you this ALL. A life to share with others, children and a husband to live with and enjoy all His blessings, a hearty laugh at the minutest humor in life, love everywhere, a good health for every member of the family, a peaceful neighborhood, a penny to buy your daily bread and most of all, the presence of Allah, the Almighty in all the things you're doing everyday, those are more than wealth, and if good health is with you and with your family for the rest of the days ahead, again, I tell you, you owe that to Him and haven't you thought it yet, His blessings upon us is not even compensated by the number of times we offer our thank you and ask for forgiveness for all the sins we have done. At this moment, let us pause and ask for forgiveness and thank Him for all the blessings He had showered on you. I am asking Him to shower you some more blessings, financially, spiritually, to keep you and your family in good health always, to provide you guidance in all the things you do, to give you wisdom so you can do the best for yourself, for your family and for others, to be steadfast in all your decisions especially those that will bring goodness to others, keep you away from those that will not give you forth goodness unto others and also give you more April to come in the years ahead. This all, I ask from Allah, the Almighty for you, for your family and the rest of us here in the world.